Have you ever felt like you just don't love your child? How do I get past feeling like this or am I best to give her away?
I am a single mum working and studying and I just can't do this anymore. I feel as though I can not provide her what she needs or wants in life. I don't want to ruin her anymore then I feel I have done already. I don't have family around me to help and none care anyway. I feel so alone in a big black hole and I want out as I feel it's the best thing for my daughter and anyone around me. I wish one day to never wake up so she could live happily without me.
Don't love my child
Don't love my child
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It sounds like you are depressed and overwhelmed. It doesn't sound like you don't love your child, if you didn't love your child you wouldn't be concerned for her welfare.
Please see your GP about a mental health care plan. Things can and do get better and I suspect strongly you are doing a much better job than you think you are.
But I don't think you should just give your child away.
Answer me this, why are you working so hard plus studying? That's a lot to take on and I suspect it so for one person only, your little one because you want a better future for her. You are an awesome mum. I don't know you but I guarantee you love your child, but your depression is talking. Having depression is like constantly walking up hill, anything that requires work (your child) makes the hill steeper, so naturally you think you don't love her. The truth is: when you get your depression under control, your whole outlook will change, plus, as children get older they become much more independent and easier with the day to day stuff. 1. Get a mental health care plan with your GP. 2. If you can possible afford it, get some alone time to recharge, it is vital when you are a single mum. Even if you pay a teenager to look after her for a morning every Saturday, it will give you something to look forward to plus some much needed rest.
DEPRESSION!!! Get help now! If you prefer not to medicate see a naturopath. Your problem has nothing to do with your child and everything to do with your mental health. Hoping all goes well and you get better.
You need respite !! Which means a little break to re group and re coup ! Can you take a little break from work or study ? As others have said get a mental health plan ! If your worried about fitting in counseling time wise there are services that do it via Skype/video chat ! Just ask around !!
As others have also said i believe you do care about your daughter as you would not be worried about how you are affecting her if you didn't !! The TRUTH is that you are all she needs !!! To lose you would devistate her!!
You can do this mumma !! You totally got this !