First home buying stress=whole life stress.

Hi Imperfect mummys. Im just writing as im extremely stressed atm.
My partner and I are currently in the process of buying our first home, currently waiting for loan approval. And this will determine if we move good few hours away from our current location or not which is making it very hard to plan my daughters 2nd birthday. Which just stresses me out more because I like to have everything run smoothly and well planned months ahead. So I just feel like im failing in all areas atm.
To add to the stress ive recently fallen out with my "mum friends" who I thought where genuinely great friends but as it turns they where basically just using me.
All I want to do is crawl in a ball and cry just from stress and over thinking.
I know there are alot worse things happening in the world and in other people's lives, really I am blessed with a lovely family and partner but I just feel so alone, down and anxious about everything :(
I just cant deal with living in the " un known" if you know what I mean?
Im hopeing writing this down to see whats stressing me will make me feel alot better.
Thanks Mummys and im so sorry for sounding like such a sook. Xo