The internal struggle

Hi sisterhood.

I'm not sure what I am asking in this, more that I need to get this off my chest.

In September last year I started a new job. I was so happy to be out of the toxic environment I was in previously.

Fast forward to November, the director of the company I work for takes me for coffee and tells me that he is concerned about the amount of sick leave I had taken by this point (2 days 3 hours.....) the following Sunday I got really really sick and could not go to work the next day. I went to a doctor, and I got a medical certificate on my own accord they did not ask for it.

Tuesday evening I get a call from the director saying we aren't going to continue this.

Since 24 November I have been out of work. I've engaged a lawyer for a multitude of reasons and we are waiting for a court date. They let me go because of my health but had no concern for my health sending me into an asbestos contaminated building with no PPE or training.

I've been applying for every job I can. Right from what I am qualified in to supermarkets and cinemas.

Due to this going through the court system I am not able to tell anyone why I can't divulge the issues with my previous employer. Why I was only there a few months, why they aren't a reference.

I'm struggling internally. I feel like such a failure because I was screwed over by others. No one wants to hire someone who isn't presently in work.

I have an amazing partner who is being really supportive through this financially and emotionally but I've gone from being a successful business woman to sitting at home in my pyjamas most days just crying.