I just found a photo of myself from 10 years ago and almost cried. I can't believe how much I've changed for the worse. I was so much thinner, I had better skin, I had a great relationship and - most of all - I had goals and was excited about my future. Now I'm about 15kg overweight, skin terrible, marriage OK, and feel like I'm getting nowhere in life. I have a part-time job which I enjoy but the hours are terrible and it's not like I'm changing the world or anything. I have a son at preschool a couple of days a week. I love him immensely, and I'd say I'm a good mother, but I'm not a natural-born mother. Sometimes I feel very agitated and impatient with him (I try not to let it show), and sometimes I resent how little freedom I have now. I have a to-do list that's miles long and along with being a mum, errands and housework, I'm lucky if I can get any of them done. I start things and don't finish them. I get cranky with my husband over the most minor things. I don't really have any friends. I don't feel happy very often. I don't know what I want out of life and I don't know how to find out. Is there something wrong with me? Can you top chicks please tell me: where do I to start to get on top of things?
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I'll be following this closely. Could have written it myself! I'm am currently pacing the house trying to dodge kids just to get to 10,000 steps today. Trying to lose weight which is my number one goal.. Because going to work with crater VPL is getting to me. Lol
Skin, weight etc let that one go! Nobody has the skin they had 10 years ago or the exact same body. That's just called aging and shit happens!
I think everyone has periods in there life where they wonder what they really want to do with there life. Honestly that the only way to get over that is try some stuff.
As to the not finishing stuff is this just because the kid interrupts, is it because you loose interest? Do you prioritise time for you and book that in?
I was a bit the same a couple of years ago. Until I repeated the mantra 'Just fucking do it', over and over in my head when I was feeling scared/lazy/nervous/indecisive about either exercise, healthy eating, trying new things, career choices etc etc etc. Now two years on, I've lost all the weight I wanted to. I'm in a better position with my job. The only person holding you back.... is you. It's sounds so cliche. But it's true. I learnt that. There is NO point dwelling on disappointment and sadness about how you are now. Just recognise how being this way makes you feel and endeavour to make a better future. For me, that means a healthier lifestyle and recognising that even though I'm a mother, my career is going to matter to me when all my kids are in school, so I need to work towards it now. That year, five years, decade is going to go by, whether you make choices to better yourself or not. Where do you want to be in five years? 'Just Fucking do it.'.
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Im hearing you ..10 years ago i was a personal trainer. I was so fit and healthy. Im now 30kg over weight i smoke my skin has age spots on it i have a dead end job